"I am."
I found it in a shoebox last winter, buried beneath my father’s old ties and my mother’s baptismal candle. I didn’t remember taking it. I didn’t remember her. But the moment my fingers touched the glossy surface, a smell rose up—jasmine and diesel, sea salt and burning sage. That was the smell of her. Roula was nineteen that summer. I was seventeen, an American boy sent to live with my grandfather in Kifissia while my parents "sorted things out." The euphemism hung in the air like smoke. My Greek was clumsy, a butchering of verbs and misplaced accents. Roula spoke English with a soft, broken precision, as if each word were a borrowed jewel she was afraid to scratch. Roula 1995
On my last night, we sat on her balcony. The jasmine had bloomed—white stars against black iron. She gave me a small brass key on a leather cord. "What's this?" I asked. But the moment my fingers touched the glossy
She laughed—a real laugh, cracked and unguarded. "Yes. That is the point." I was seventeen, an American boy sent to
"No."
I wanted to say something beautiful, something that would pin her to this moment, to this rooftop, to me. Instead, I said, "That's far."